Hello friends! I’ve missed you!
I decided a few months ago to take a step back from blogging and social media. We all know that social media is not what it’s all cracked up to be. We know the idea of “perfection” does not exist. Yet, we fall into this trap and the comparison game takes you feel speed ahead. In addition to the comparison game, I was struggling with anxiety, anger and jealousy towards people and things I didn’t have or have not accomplished because of my congenital heart disease. Everything in life was simply far too overwhelming. Therefore, a break from social media and blogging was a necessary step to help me find ways on how to deal with a life that keeps getting harder.
So many of you sweet followers have been reaching out to me asking if I was ok and if I had my open heart surgery yet. I have not. In fact, some of you remember it was originally scheduled for June 12th. After a lot of conversations with family, conference calls with care teams and A LOT of praying, I decided to postpone my 3rd open heart surgery to Sept 12th. Thankfully, delaying the surgery 3 months will not damage my heart. I will be able to finish my Master’s degree in August. I am SO excited to be able to finish this chapter of my life before another brutal surgery and recovery. So far, it has been the best decision both physically and mentally. And this time away from social media has given me enough peace to know that I did make the right decision.
Also, this “break” has allowed me to flourish in ways I didn’t know possible. I finished a 54 day Rosary novena with a couple of my best friends. If you have read some of my previous posts, you might know how important my faith is to me. Finishing this 54 day rosary novena was so powerful and it led me to a greater trust in my faith and what my purpose is in this lifetime. We are never guaranteed tomorrow. We are never guaranteed what everyone else has. But, I’ve learned these past few months that we are guaranteed God’s love.
As much as I am dreading the Fall (it’s my favorite season too) because it will mean go time for my open heart, I am so excited and thankful to make sweet memories with my nieces and nephew this Summer. I’m also getting another niece this Winter!!! My sister is pregnant and I could not be more excited to snuggle another sweet baby niece after recovery. And buy lots of bows. Because duh! That’s this auntie’s job I have a lot to be grateful for in the midst of a lot suffering.
Cheers to an amazing Summer!